my life is so overwhelmed by everything around me. things just happen so fast, i dont know what to do, or how to respond
had cac connect camp yesterday and today, and im really thankful that i actually decided to go. shall not go into details, but yeah, it was good, and i didnt regret going for it.
special thanks to shaun darren and nic during the time of qt and sharing, and just reassuring me that God is always there for me. and mel who took the time to come talk to me. and matt, for his guidance in God's way, and sending me home all the time^^
at first i thought the camp was like, the worst possible period of time. so many things happened on monday, i was just caught in the blur. i couldnt exactly enjoy myself on the games and whatever activities, my mind was just filled with questions.
for the workshop, i had a dilemma between the love and friends workshop. why does God have to make everything so coincidental? just because my lifes a mess doesnt mean i have to make such choices to hurt people or myself.. in the end i settled for sam's talk on love. and i realised that hey, true love doesnt have to be between me and a guy. the sexual attraction's just a peripheral thing, but the important thing is simply his character, or her. i guess i can truly say i loved the both of them, both him and her, and i still do. but i dont know if thats the right thing to do. or whether its a mutual thing. what am i supposed to do? what am i even supposed to think?
