i realised im good at forcing smiles.

because no one seemed to think it looks lame.

ive got no choice, some things just have to be kept from the people around me.

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diet is officially on. because 1. i have no money to buy food. 2. im fat^^ and 3. exams are over which means i can turn anorexic, and the lack of brain cells will not affect my results.

didnt eat much today, 5 mussel pieces from mos burger. haiyiu and xuefen were trying to convince me that the tentacle-like strip i pulled out from the mussel was its sex organ. so i looked at the poor mussel and said "sorry" and they bursted out laughing. they claimed i had a very sad expression when i did that. i wasnt even trying to be funny!!

spent some time laughing at xuefen and how she thought "going out" was the same as "walking out of school together". and how haiyiu wanted to say "it was a joke" but typed wrongly and said "i was a joke". lol!

pangseh-ed them, when they wanted to go ps. i have a reason for avoiding ps. its not a very nice memory.

hurh and i saw wanlin and ben's scary classmates just now.

after what the 2 of them did, i dont think i can ever face anyone from their class anymore. its so embarrassing.

oh and benita chiang, i dont recall sleeping in the same room as you! same bus and plane, but not same room. i think it was dad and mom who roomed with you. i was in grandma's room all the time. hahaha!

thanks guys. i love you, even though you two happily ruined my reputation. and told people about my weird dream. LIEW WAN LIN YOU BETTER NOT BLOG ABOUT IT, OR THIS MARKS THE END OF YOUR LIFE. it'll be quite sad if she died now, at the tender age of 15. she hasnt even reached the legal age yet! i totally appreciate all that you 2 have done, but please, such fame is too much for me to handle (: lol.

i seriously feel damn weird.

anyway, im not trying to be sarcarstic -points up- no offence (:

this is a totally weird, mixed up, screwed up post. just like my feelings now. thankyou thankyou.

now, that didnt make much sense either.

shoots. im not supposed to use the computer today. because mom was shit irritating yesterday and grounded me from the comp today. WHOOPS.

bleargh emo-ing AGAIN. cant stand myself.

talking to gabe is fun. he was telling me about gary and some things which im not supposed to put here. haha i miss gabriel! and of course, syazana qianyi and huichi.

CHARLENE! posted it up.